three thousand years

yellow, orange, green, pink and blue

brilliant hues of colours

streak across the sky
forests, mountains and gushes of rivers and streams

paled

in comparison

but

the mountain of sorrow

of guilt

pain

and misunderstanding

will stay right here

next to me

inside me

forever

the nightsky

shedding tears of moonlight

stars

blinking unspeakable grief

remembering

our story

milleniums ago----

you stood here

amidst the flowers

and i

by your side

nothing felt so perfect

until the arrow

and the ringing clash of

sword against sword

shining

as the tears of moonlight

you lay on the bed

of red grass

promising me

with a smile

"I'll wait for you."

and now,

i'm waiting

beneath the same moonlight

on the bed of grass

no longer stained by your soul

my tears

our memories

all that remains

is the story

three million years ago

and i'm

still

waiting...

Smile, even though you heart is aching...

This year haven been exactly a perfect year. on second thought, when was a year perfect? but this year, millions of people, all around the world raised their voices as one, and sang in loving memory for the late king of pop. Among these millions and billions of people, stood me. i know i'm not really a fan of his, nor am i very particular about his actions, but like everybody else, i am affected by the grief, the sadness and the hurt when death is around.

"I just want to say ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you can ever imagine, and I just wanted to say I love him so much,"
i don't blame the Jacksons for letting Paris express grief, and so heartbreakingly. it was only natural that a daughter might want to express her feelings for a father who had gone too soon. given the choice, would u have wanted the choice? would you rather miss out on saying the last words in front of your dad for the last time? no matter how sudden, how tragic, or even how expected the death of a loved one is, it always hurt. it'll always stab you in the heart and leave a huge bleeding hole, constantly sending pricks and pins into your throat, and that hole, the huge gaping hole, would have to wait until time heals it, but never completely. would you rather have a child swallow all her grief and bear it quietly, waiting for time to heal an eternity of sadness and loss? maybe you don't know this, but it always help when there is someone to listen. it always help when you can let your emotion out, and there is no better way to heal a broken soul.

In the memorial service of Michael, a lotta great things were said about him. his life were accounted again in a way that there was no way to doubt this King's ability, his ability to bring the whole world--breaking race, colours, religion barriers--together, creating a new world where all are one, and one is all. In his songs, we are all equals, and together "We are the world". "there is nothing we can't do if we raise our voices as one." "They say the sky is the limit, and for me, that is true." and now finally, our beloved King of Pop had found his neverland.

"I am here now, and i am here forever."
we all came to know and love MJ, and when he danced and sang, he brought joy into our lifes. and whilst we're celebrating his life, we must all remember, that he is never really gone, because when we remember him, he'll live to eternity. This isn't just a memorial, nor is it just a tribute. This is a moment of remembrance, a moment of love, and a moment of eternity.

"Somehow, when Michael Jackson sang and dances, you never felt distant. you felt that, you believed in him, and he believed in you."
"He enchanted us with his passion and compassion, and when he sang our songs ... and dance on the moon... but when he left, he left us feeling achingly alone. Piercingly, alone."
"We had him. Beautiful, delighting our eyes... . He gave us all he had been given... . We are missing Michael Jackson. But we do know, we had him - and we are the world."

Fighting back tears, Brooke Shields recounts how she and Michael - who were oft labeled an "odd couple" when photographed out together as kids - enjoyed "the most natural and easiest of friendships." Having grown up in the spotlight, she says, "[We] needed to be adults very early. But when we were together, we were two little kids having fun." her speech offers an illuminating glimpse inside the lives of two rising stars who helped each other embrace their inner child and all their fun and weird times, and Jackson's eccentric fashion sense. "If you're going to hold my hand it had better be the non-gloved one because sequins really hurt me," she says.
"All our hearts are aching, but we need to look up there, and know that he is perched somewhere below the crescent moon, and smile."

"Sure, there were some sad times and questionable decisions on his part, but Michael Jackson accomplished everything he dreamed of"
"I think simply he is the greatest entertainer that ever lived,"

"Never Dreamed You'd Leave in Summer--"I never dreamed you'd leave in summer,I thought you would go then come back home,I thought the cold would leave by summer,But my quiet nights will be spent alone. Michael, why didn't you stay?"

"In our darkest hour, in my deepest despair, will you still care? Will you be there?In my trials, and my tribulations, through our doubts, and frustrations, In my violence, in my turbulence, through my fear, and my confessionsIn my anguish and my pain, through my joy and my sorrow, in the promise of another tomorrowI'll never let you part, for you're always in my heart"

we remember the King of Pop, and we know we are the world.