Supposed to Do

There are lots of things I'm supposed to do.

For example, right now, I"m supposed to be listening to the cute soft-voiced librarian in front trying valiantly to teach us how to access the library's large range of resources. I'm supposed to be paying attention so I could finish the research paper I was supposed to finish last semester. I'm supposed to be studying for the upcoming physics test because I haven't finish studying like I was supposed to last night.

I've always heard--or rather, read-- about adults telling children what you need is more important than what you want. Even my favourite fandom, Harry Potter, with all its vast range fanfics deals on what needs to be done. My favourite character, Severus, had been doing what he was supposed to do all his life despite the pain and sorrow that brought him.

There are many things we are supposed to do in life, for the greater good, for future bliss. But how many of us can overcome the temptations that dominate our lives, luring us to do what we want to instead of what needs to be done.

I love to write. God knows I love it. But I've chosen this, I've chosen Medicine, and I'm supposed to learn about all those sciences and stuff related to it. It's my choice, it's what circumstances have chosen for me, and I'd conceded. I'm supposed to stick to it with all my heart and soul, but I can't. I love to write too damn much.

But then again, if everyone did what they were supposed to do, where does the wonder of life and surprises come in? What if Sir Arthur Conan Doyle stuck to being a physician and did what he was supposed to do? Would we even know the wonder of Sherlock Holmes?

What if ?

What if?

What I'm supposed to do, and what I'm doing.

It's a lifelong dilemma.

Going Against The Tide

Going against the tide

I'm going against the tide

Rough winds do come my way

And chilly winter snows

But across this sea of dangers and foes

I'll go against the tide

Strong I might not be, weak-willed I am

First one through the wall, he bleeds the most

But with you waiting there

I'll go against the tide

Soon I know the sun will shine

Arise those clouds of ruddy light

To know soon you will be near to me

I'll go against the tide

Going against the tide

I'm going against the tide

I'm going against the tide

For you

Valentine (Song)

Going home on a rainy day

There's a test on history I haven't read yet

It's Valentine

And I'm home tonight it's a lonely day

In my room I'm with my teddy bears

Scrawling your name all over again

Check my cell phone again

Are you lonely tonight or are you out on a date 

I'm wondering if you know this secret

I've been stealing glances when you walk by

Chorus

It's just another day

When they go hand in hand

And roses rain above over their heads

It's just another day

I hope you'll come and say

If you could tonight

If you would tonight

Would you be my Valentine

It's five to seven I'm cleaning up

The phone is ringing I run and grab it

Mum's calling now

It's Valentine, she'll be late tonight

And I'm home alone in one big empty house

I pin up my cards of Valentines

Writing down your name

I know it's probably late, but I don't care right now

I'm wondering if you know this secret

I'm picking one out and heading to your house

Chorus

It's just another day

When they go hand in hand

And roses rain above over their heads

It's just another day

I hope you come and say

If you could tonight

If you would tonight

Would you be my Valentine

The doorbell rings as I'm heading out to the street

And you're standing outside in the rain looking like someone I'd kiss

And you smile when you held out the rose

You say

Chorus

It's just another day

When we go hand in hand

And roses rain above over our heads

It's just another day

I'm gonna come and say

If you would tonight

If you could tonight

Would you be my Valentine

Would you be my Valentine

Sleep

Lost so early, lost so sweetly

Lost so swiftly to ones so dearly

Little dearie, don’t cry baby,

I’ll hold you tightly when the skies are raining.

Sleep soundly, sleep sweetly

Don’t dream of the evil that haunts your mornings

Come dawn’s first light we’ll fight till victory

Till the skies rain tears and the soil bleed freely

But close your eyes now, my darling, sleep

Rest your weary heart, there’d be no more hurting.

Unnatural

They say we aren't meant to be together

They say it's wrong

They say the world wasn't made this way

That it is unnatural

Who are they to tell us what's wrong or what's right?

Who are they to say we're wrong?

Who are they to judge us when all we wanted was to be happy?

Who are they to judge it's unnatural?

People are entitled to find love

What's wrong with finding it in different places?

Humans are different, in names and in faces

Why is this so unnatural?

We're meant for one another, soul and all

We're just born in the wrong places

A tiny mistake, an obstacle,

Is it really that unnatural?

Love should be without barriers

Love exist for everyone at anywhere

But they try to pull us apart, to tear us into pieces

So why are we the ones who's unnatural?

Friends and foes alike, we are just like you

We're just different 'cause Fate made it so

Please don't push us away, don't make it hurt

We are not unnatural. 

I Will Hold You

I will hold you tightly when you’re lonely,

I will hold you quietly when you’re jammed.

I will hold you tenderly when you’re sad,

I will hold you sweetly when you’re happy.

I will hold you shamelessly when you’re weary,

I will hold you proudly when you’re victorious.

I will hold you gingerly when you’re vicious,

I will hold you gently when you’re wounded.

I will hold you gracefully when you stumble,

I will hold you faithfully when you’re climbing.

I will hold you, always,

So when you fall and fall and fall,

It’s my arms you’ll fall into

It’s love you’re falling in.