Those Moments

Those moments when you realise your heart simply refuses to listen, and your brain actually eggs it on.

Those moments when all your past debates vanish like a swirl of post-coital cigarette smoke, lost in the haze of a different sort.

Those moments when your past rears up to meet you in a tsunami wave swallowing you whole.

Those moments when you are still doggedly refusing to let it go, choosing to hurt instead.

Those moments when you are still daring to hope, daring to hold, daring to want.

Those moments when a skipped beat beats skipped stones across the calm lake spreading ripples.

Those moments when loneliness trumps everything.

Those moments when everything trumps loneliness.

Those moments when lust creeps and seeps through fabric, soaking each cell, trembling, shuddering, leaking. 

Those moments when apathy takes hold and pries open your desperate grip for anything that makes you feel alive.

And those moments when sleep finally greets you and welcomes you instead of keeping you an eyelid and a world away.

#midnightramblings